From our Torah portion for this week (Ki Tavo) we read: “And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you hear (shema) the Voice of the LORD your God” (Deut. 28:2). The language here is unusual, as if these blessings would seize you like an army takes an enemy stronghold. The sages comment that God’s blessings can “overtake” you in a way that may hide their true purpose for your good (Rom. 8:28). At such times we do not understand they are a concealed mercy (רַחֲמִים נִסְתָר) designed for our benefit. Therefore king David affirmed his confidence despite being surrounded by trouble. Where it is written, “Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life” (Psalm 23:6), the verb translated “shall follow me” (i.e., יִרְדְּפוּנִי) comes from a root word that means “to pursue,” as a hunter chases after his prey. David was sure that God’s lovingkindness would “hound” him as he made his way through this world – even in the dark places, even in “the valley of the shadow of death” (בְּגֵיא צַלְמָוֶת) – where God’s rod and staff would there comfort him and shepherd his way (Psalm 23:4). Therefore we we pray: “May your love, O LORD, be upon us, as we hope in You.”

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Whatever the heart seeks, it will find. We are constantly “asking, seeking, and knocking” (Matt. 7:7), even if we are often unaware of our heart’s search. The one who pursues righteousness will find it, just as evil will come to the one who searches after it (Prov. 11:27). As it is written, “Those who worship worthless idols forsake the love (i.e., chesed: חֶסֶד) that could be theirs” (Jonah 2:8). David understood that as he pursued God, God’s love would pursue him; as we seek, so we are sought by God; as we draw near to God, so He will draw near to us (James 4:8).
The prophet Hosea likewise cried out: “Let us know; let us press on to know (i.e., נִרְדְּפָה, “pursue after”) the LORD; His going out is sure as the dawn; He will come to us as the showers, as the spring rains that water the earth” (Hos. 6:3). May God help us pursue him be’khol levavkha – with all our heart – because He has promised, “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart” (Jer. 29:13). And may the love of the LORD indeed be upon us, even as we put our hope in Him. Amen.

The knowledge of God (ידיעת יהוה) is our supreme good and the “chief end of human life.” It is our highest blessing, more precious than earthly riches, power, or any of the pleasures this world affords (Jer. 9:23-24; Prov. 3:15; Matt. 13:44-46). Those who do not esteem the true knowledge of God invariably fall into darkness, idolatry, and despair (1 Thess. 4:5; Eph. 4:17; Hos. 4:1-2). The knowledge of God set us free to receive the inestimable blessing of eternal life given in the Messiah, as Yeshua testified: “And this is eternal life, to know you (לדעת אותך) the only true God (האל האמיתי היחיד), and Yeshua the Messiah (ישוע המשיח) whom you have sent” (John 17:3). Knowing God is the very reason for your existence and nothing can be compared with its superlative excellence (Phil. 3:8). Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! (Rom. 11:33).

How we deal with trouble and suffering (i.e., tzuris) makes all the difference. We may be tempted to bitterness over our lives, but then what? To paraphrase Soren Kierkegaard, the way of life is how more than it is what. You may be powerless to control reality, but you are nevertheless responsible for how you respond to it. Check your attitude. Do you chose to live in lament over a healing that has not yet happened, or perhaps regard yourself as a hapless victim? Or will you attempt to justify your suffering as a means of personal atonement, accepting it passively as a “good child” or martyr? Does your suffering stretch your heart, or does it cause you to shrink back in fear or self-pity?
Perhaps you (like me) once learned Psalm 19:7 as, “The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul.” However, the Hebrew text might better be translated as, “The instruction (i.e., Torah) of the LORD is perfect, returning the soul.” This is the message of teshuvah (תְּשׁוּבָה), or “repentance,” of course. We turn away from ourselves to discover that only the love of God given in Yeshua gives life to our dead hearts (Mark 1:15). Teshuvah is therefore first of all a matter of faith, of trusting in the miracle of God. And though it is indeed a great gift from heaven, it requires that we pass through the “narrow gate” of humility by confessing the truth about who we are (Matt. 7:13). We turn away from our pride; we acknowledge our inner poverty, our neediness, and we mourn over the loss and hurt caused by our sin. Teshuvah turns us away from our attempts to defend or justify ourselves and instead turns to God to heal our separation from love (Rom. 8:3-4). The miracle of love buries our old nature and transforms us into a new creation (2 Cor. 5:17).

When asked how many commandments are in the Torah, most Jews will answer 613, based on Jewish tradition (the number 613 is sometimes called “taryag” (תריג), an abbreviation for the letters Tav (400) + Resh (200) + Yod (10) + Gimmel (3) = 613). Despite several attempts made over the centuries, however, there has never been a definitive list of these commandments, and of those who tried to compile such, no two agree… Some say the number 613 comes from a fanciful midrash that teaches that since there are 365 days in a year (corresponding to the 365 negative commandments) and 248 “parts” of the body (corresponding to the positive commandments), each day we should use our body to serve God. Regardless of the exact count, however, the Talmud followed the Apostle Paul by understanding all the Torah’s commandments to be derived from the Ten Commandments given at Sinai, the most basic of which is the very First Commandment, namely, “I AM the LORD your God (אָנכִי יְהוָה אֱלהֶיךָ) who brought you out of Egypt, out of the house of slavery” (Exod. 20:2). This foundational commandment was later restated by the prophet Habbakuk as: וְצַדִּיק בֶּאֱמוּנָתוֹ יִחְיֶה / “The righteous person will live by faith in God” (Hab. 2:4; Gal. 3:11; Heb. 10:38). Indeed, Yeshua taught us the law of faith in God’s love, which preempts, overrules, and informs all the others…
The Hebrew word for “world” or “age” is olam (עוֹלָם), which is derived from a root verb (עָלַם) that means “to conceal” or “to hide.” God “hides” His face from us so that we will seek Him, and that means pressing through ambiguity of this world to discern and take hold of the truth. Therefore King David said, בַּקְּשׁוּ פָנָיו תָּמִיד/ bakeshu fanav tamid: “Seek His face continually” (Psalm 105:4). Note that the Hebrew gematria (numerical value) for the word “fanav” (i.e., “His face”) is the same as that for the word “olam.” When we truly seek God’s face (i.e., His Presence), that is, “do teshuvah,” we are able to discern the underlying purpose for our lives in this age… As it is written in our Scriptures: “Blessed is the one who endures temptation, for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life (עֲטֶרֶת הַחַיִּים) that the LORD has promised to those who love him” (James 1:12). The present age, then, constitutes a test that God providentially designs to lead us to the “crown of life,” and we are made happy when we go through its fires and are not consumed. Indeed, only those who love the Lord will be able to withstand the fires… The “crown of life” symbolizes that we have truly received the purpose for which we were created and that we are identified with God’s own passion and love. The light of the crown represents the Divine Presence within us, the Life that overcomes despair on our behalf.
Sin is not the result of not knowing what is right, but rather of being unwilling to understand such, and therefore is the refusal to do what is right. It is not the result of ignorance but rebellion. Sin doesn’t say “I can’t” but rather “I won’t,” and therefore it is a matter of the will, the heart, the secret desires of the soul… Just as grace is inaccessible for someone who refuses to be honest with himself, so is forgiveness. If a person refuses to confess the truth about his condition, salvation itself is impossible, since God literally cannot save the soul that denies its need for Him. Therefore the Scripture does not vainly declare: “Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but the one who confesses and forsakes them will find mercy” (Prov. 28:13).
“If I ascend to heaven, you are there; if I descend to the depths, behold, you are there too” (Psalm 139:8). The sages note the use of the adverbs “there” and “here” in this verse, saying that when a person feels like he has ascended to great heights, the LORD will be “there” (שָׁם), that is, distant from him, but when he is humble and low, the LORD will be “here” (הִנֵּה), that is, right at his side (Isa. 57:15). This is the “upside-down” way of beholding the Kingdom of Heaven. Can a camel go through the eye of a needle? No more than a ‘rich man’ can find life through his own ventures (Matt. 19:23-24). The only way to enter life is to disown your riches (i.e., your self-sufficiency) by becoming “impoverished in spirit.” This is the narrow way that leads to life (Matt. 7:14). You have to let go of the “baggage” of your worldly ego… Yeshua teaches that only by emptying ourselves can we be made full; only by mourning ourselves can we find comfort, and only by hungering and thirsting for God’s righteousness can we find inner satisfaction…