Though it is true that God will never leave nor forsake us, he nevertheless allows trouble in our lives so that we will learn to call upon him and know his heart… For how else will we understand the truth of our great need for him, and how else his great provision? “Blessed are the poor in spirit,” describes the poignant awareness of our inner poverty, our bankruptcy of heart, the destitution of our condition (Matt. 5:3). We cry inwardly, “Forsake me not, O LORD: O my God, be not far from me” (Psalm 38:21) because we realize our need for deliverance from ourselves; we understand that we cannot take a step in his way apart from his upholding. “Hold thou me up, and I shall be safe: and I will have respect unto thy statutes continually” (Psalm 119:117). “Do not forsake me, O LORD, is the mantra in our darkness, the antiphon of God’s promised Presence; it is the cry of the heart that knows that only God can get us through the next moment and its temptation to despair. “Do not forsake me, O LORD, lest I be swallowed up by my pain, my fear, my sadness, my anguish of heart; do not forsake me, for I am nothing but the anguish of the moment, the sorrow of loneliness, the fear of my own heart as I tremble before you in my desperation…

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We all struggle with sin in our lives, and each of us needs deliverance from various attachments and fears that keep us from the deeper life… The problem is within ourselves, that is, the contradiction of heart we experience in our double-mindedness, our ambivalence, and our unbelief (Jer. 17:9). We may recite the Shema every day and say that we love God with all our being, but in the ordinary moments of daily life we are drawn to other concerns, alien affections, other “gods.” Indeed, whatever matters most to us, whatever consumes our attention, time, resources, and our interest, is something we “worship,” that is, something we esteem as worthy and valuable…

People necessarily value things, and therefore every person alive is a “worshiper” (i.e., a person who finds “worth” in something). This applies equally to a devout atheist or pious skeptic as much as it does a deeply religious person… The question that matters, however, is what is your ultimate concern? What do you really want? Only when we begin to understand what draws and attracts us can we begin to discern what we really need. Therefore we must first acknowledge our false worship, our radical selfishness, and our sundry attachments in order to be set free. We must confess the truth that we are slaves.

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The central issue of your spiritual life is the willingness to do God’s will, or the willingness to believe, since these amount to the same thing…. Believe what? That God is real, that He has (personally) called you by name, that he has particularly redeemed you by Yeshua’s own blood poured out for your sins, and that therefore that your identity and life are bound up with his mercy and truth… Perhaps this message seems too good to be true, and yet it is the heart’s duty to take hold of hope and to refuse to yield to despair, as it is written: “Let not love and truth forsake you; bind them around your neck; write them on the tablet of your heart” (Prov. 3:3).

The spiritual danger here is being “pulled apart” in opposite directions, dissipating the soul so that it will not be unified, focused and directed. Both loving and hating the good is a state of painful inner conflict, ambivalence, and self-contradiction. “Who can bring a clean thing out of an unclean? there is not one” (Job 14:4), yet this is our starting point: “I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand” (Rom. 7:21). We are often willing and unwilling, or neither willing nor unwilling, and this makes us inwardly divided, weak, fragmented, anxious, and “soulless.” An honest faith that “wills one thing” binds the soul into a unity, or an authentic “self.” As King David said, “One thing have I asked of the LORD, that will I seek after: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to inquire in his temple” (Psalm 27:4).

The way to be healed of a divided heart is to earnestly make a decision: “Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you” (James 4:8). There are no conditions given here — other than your raw need to connect with God for help. “Purify your hearts, you double-minded ones” (δίψυχοι, lit. “two-souled ones”); make up your mind and be unified within your heart: “How long will you go limping between two different opinions?” (1 Kings 18:21). You are invited to come; God has made the way; your place at the table has been set and prepared…

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Our faith is expressed every day by what we regard as most important. What do you treasure in life? What is your “pearl of great price”? Some people will say that loving God is their greatest blessing, though their choices indicate that they are focused on various temporal and worldly concerns. The life of faith requires the whole heart and singleness of vision, as King David said, “One thing I ask of the Lord; that is what I will seek.” David asked for one thing – not many things. He did not come with a litany of requests. He was not double minded. As Kierkegaard said, “purity of the heart is to will one thing.” Despite his troubles and pains, David sought the best he could find.

The most important thing in life is to decide what is the most important thing in life – and then to act accordingly. Time is short for all of us, and it is more vital than ever to find healing for our woundedness. We have to quit pretending to be what we aren’t and learn to be honest and vulnerable. Spirituality without honesty and humility is a sham. If you don’t know how to begin, then begin there – by knowing your confusion and your need for the miracle of God to teach you… For instance, if you don’t know how to really love, then confess your heart’s loss and pray for the miracle you need. As it is written, “God has compassion for the lowly and broken, and saves the souls of the powerless.”

 

Hebrew Lesson:

 

• Psalm 72:13 Hebrew lesson (pdf)

 

When God said, “Let there be light, and there was light” (Gen. 1:3), He seemed to put on light as a robe of the Divine Majesty and Kingship: He wrapped Himself with radiance as a tallit gadol… Da lifnei mi attah omed (דַּע לִפְנֵי מִי אַתָּה עוֹמֵד) – “Know before whom you stand.” The whole earth is lit up with God’s glory, and every bush of the field is aflame before us — if we have eyes to see (Isa. 6:3). May it please the LORD to open our spiritual eyes so that we can behold more of His glory and majesty in this hour… Amen.

Who among us has not experienced loss? While we cannot escape suffering in this life, God can give us heart to face the struggle… “You shall love the LORD thy God will all thy heart – particularly while you are in the midst of bewilderment, testing, and affliction. As the prophet Job exclaimed in the midst of his losses, “The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the Name of the LORD be blessed.”

 

Hebrew Lesson:

 

• Job 1:21b Hebrew lesson print (pdf)

 

We had nothing when we were born into this world, and all that we now have was given to us by hashgachah pratit (השׁגחה פרטית) – the providential plan of God for our lives. As the LORD graciously gave, so He has the prerogative to take away. Pain, suffering, and even death itself surely do not come by accident but are rather part of the inscrutable will of God, who works all things together for the good of creation. Gam zu l’tova – this too is “for the good,” even if the good is not revealed in the moment. Job refused to blame God for his troubles, but instead he understood that whatever God does (or allows) must itself good, and there is no reason to doubt this, even if in the present there is tribulation – indeed, even the throes of death. “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change” (James 1:17). As it is written, lo yimna-tov laholekhim be’tamim (לא ימנע־טוב להֹלכים בתמים), “no good thing does he withhold from those who walk in completeness” (Psalm 84:11), and you are made complete (תמים) because of the finished work of Messiah on your behalf. Do not be afraid of His providence: no good thing will the LORD withhold from you.

When Paul wrote, “in everything give thanks” (1 Thess 5:18), surely he understood the prospect of real suffering. It is through “much tribulation” that we enter the kingdom of God (Acts 14:22). We do not ask God to insulate us from all troubles, but rather to be given the courage to carry on despite the troubles. Hence one of our standard prayers in the tradition is: בָּרוּךְ אַתָּה יהוה הַנּוֹתֵּן לַיָּעֵף כּחַ / barukh attah Adonai ha’noten lai’ya’ef koach: “Blessed are You, LORD, who gives power to the faint.”

We cannot escape suffering in this life, but God gives us heart to face the struggle. Each day contains the opportunity to serve God even in the midst of trouble (Matt. 6:34). We cannot control much of what happens to us in this life, so our task is to sanctify time and trust that God will see to our true needs. Taking refuge in God means personally trusting in His goodness for your soul, despite circumstances that might tempt you to lose heart.

 

Hebrew Blessing:

 

“Whatever does not proceed from faith is sin” (Rom. 14:23). Sin is not so much disobedience to an external code of behavior, however, as much as it is abandoning your trust, your identity, and your hope as a beloved child of God. As you believe so you will behave, and as you behave so you believe… Therefore one of the greatest of sins is to forget the truth of who you really are – a beloved and redeemed child of God! The great temptation of sin is rooted in the lie that we are unworthy people, that God does not really loves us (just the way we are), that He is disappointed in us, and so on. “Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the “Beloved.” Being the Beloved constitutes the core truth of our existence” (Nouwen). Forgetting who you are leads to forgetting who the Lord is, just as forgetting who the Lord is leads to forgetting who you are…. Therefore the Lord constantly tells us to remember and not to forget the call of his heart, the message of his love.

Sin seduces people to destroy themselves, since it first of all seeks to disown, impugn, and reject what is most important for spiritual life. The devil seeks to murder and destroy all that we need to be eternally healed… And though we might want to escape from this conflict (or to pretend that it’s not really here), the battle is intractably real and must be fully engaged until our redemption is complete (1 Pet. 5:8-9). Meanwhile, spiritual struggles can be downright ugly. Would any one deny that the cross of Messiah was a sacred space – and yet it was precisely from there, from the place of blood and suffering and pain and terror, that the grace, beauty, and strength of God for us would shine forth.

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