Small in our Eyes... - Hebrew for Christians

Torah portion Shelach-Lekha is a “heavy one” since it reports the “Sin of the Spies” (i.e., chet ha’meraglim: חטא המרגלים) and the subsequent failure of the people to trust that the Lord would take care for them. The people’s lack of bittachon (trust) in God is the most serious sin recorded in all the Torah, even more serious than the sin of the Golden Calf (i.e., chet ha’egel: חטא העגל). This is confirmed by the testimony of the New Testament, which presents the fate of the Exodus generation as the dire warning of apostasy for those who claim to follow the Messiah (see Heb. 3:7-4:2).

Trust, then, is the central issue, though in order to trust God, you must believe that you are valuable to Him and that He genuinely desires relationship with you… God redeemed you so you could know and love Him (Isa. 43:1). In this connection it is important to notice that the spies said, “we were in our eyes like grasshoppers” (Num. 13:33). They felt small because they had forgotten the reason for their redemption – they had forgotten how much they meant to God! Their lack of self-respect made them feel unworthy of the inheritance. The sin of the spies was not simply that they doubted they could overcome the “giants in the land,” but rather that they were worthy people in God’s eyes… Sadly the spies view of themselves was more real to them than God’s view of them, and that is why they added, “and so we were (like grasshoppers) in their eyes.” From a spiritual point of view, this was profoundly tragic…

One lesson we can learn from the unbelief of the spies is that we must be careful to esteem ourselves properly. We are created be’tzelem Elohim (in the image of God), and that is the starting point for everything else revealed in the Torah. This foundational idea may be expressed as “respect precedes Torah.” Self-esteem and self-worth are very important characteristics because they enable the soul to receive the Word of God. This isn’t a selfish, narcissistic type of love. If you have no self-worth, then it is likely you will believe the promises of Scripture are for other people, but not for you. You will regard yourself as an “outsider” or “alien” who is without promise of inheritance. So we have to begin there, with the fact that God created you in His image and therefore you are of infinite value. You matter to God – and therefore you must respect yourself. It is no mark of holiness to shame or belittle yourself – notwithstanding your sinful nature – since you have a duty to honor yourself as one of God’s created children. Dishonoring yourself violates the central ethical commandment of the Torah: “You shall love your neighbor as yourself” (Lev. 19:18). How can you respect others if you don’t respect yourself? You will regard yourself as “insect like” and will tend to view others as “gigantic” threats; you will act defensively and walk in fear of other people…. This is the path of a person living in a prison of fear, and it is a type of hell. Trusting in God’s personal love for you presupposes that you are worthy to be loved and that there is a divine inheritance for you. This gives you real courage to go take possession of the land as its rightful heir. Trusting in God means regarding God’s view of you as more real than your own. It means allowing yourself to be “drawn close” so that you can be in a genuine love relationship with your Heavenly Father. “From now on, therefore, we regard no one (including ourselves) according to the flesh…” (2 Cor. 5:16).

We “walk by faith, not by sight,” which means we must take hold of the promise of God, even in a world that “devours its inhabitants” and that is filled of seemingly invincible giants… Faith believes the possible, even in moments of testing and struggle. As Yeshua said, “All things are possible for the one who believes” (Mark 9:23).

“God is able to make all grace overflow to you, so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may overflow in every good work” (2 Cor. 9:8). May it please God our Heavenly Father to help us esteem ourselves properly so that we can receive, abide in, and walk in the reality and presence of His overflowing love. And may the LORD keep us all from the terrible sin of unbelief by always remembering that we infinitely matter to Him. Amen.