No one wants to admit that they are needy, broken, weak, and so on, and indeed such a confession is blasphemy to the heart of the proud. The truth, however, is that we are indeed all these things, and Yeshua told us we were blessed if we understood this (Matt. 5:3-6). The is great danger to pretend you are strong and capable of living life on your own terms, since eventually you will be blindsided by the truth about your condition. On the other hand, the confession of our weakness opens the way to God’s power, as Yeshua said to Paul in his affliction: “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Cor. 12:9). Paul came to see that the various trials and afflictions in his life taught his profound dependence on God: “for when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Access to this grace, however, comes at the expense of our pride. We must humbly confess who and what we are, and therefore we must entirely abandon hope in our own strength and virtues. “We are only as sick as the secrets we keep,” especially those secrets we keep from ourselves – those self-deceptions and illusions we use to defend ourselves.
Suppose, for instance, that you have the bad habit of complaining and even cursing when you are beset by troubles, and you want to stop doing these behaviors. You may resolve to be more optimistic and grateful, or you may read self-help books — or even take anger management classes — but nothing will do you any lasting good until you know “in your bones” that you are powerless to change your heart. That is the first step to being set free. Or suppose that you are habitually unhappy, troubled, anxious, and in pain, yet you want to find inner peace and joy. Again, apart from the miracle of God there is no lasting remedy. You must be honest with yourself and confess the truth of your condition, asking God to do in you what you cannot do for yourself. As Yeshua said: “What is impossible with man is possible with God.” So in this way God uses your sins to correct you or bring you to the end of yourself, and in that way awareness of your personal weakness is a blessing from God.
Recall that Yeshua said out of the heart proceed “evil thoughts,” or more literally, “evil dialogs” or “reasonings within yourself” (διαλογισμοι πονηροι). You are tethered to yourself – you cannot escape yourself – yet a divided house cannot stand. Attempting to relate to yourself apart from a relationship with God leads to ongoing despair — either the despair of being yourself or else the despair of fleeing from yourself — but either way, to a condition of anxiety derived from not being grounded in the life of God… “Unless a seed of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it abides alone…” (John 12:24). Yeshua is the source of all life, and we find nourishment, strength, and the meaning of who we are as we connect with him. By faith we affirm: “I have been crucified with Messiah, and it is no longer ‘I’ who live, but Messiah who lives in me” (Gal. 2:20). There is a new self that comes from above, known only in spiritual relationship with the Savior. The miracle of the exchanged life comes as we surrender to the truth of what God does for us (2 Cor. 5:17). That’s the essence of the gospel, “the power of God for salvation for all who believe” (Rom. 1:16). Therefore we do not attempt to crucify ourselves, or labor to reform our lower nature, but we instead accept that we already have been crucified and healed by the mercy and miracle of God. We clothe ourselves in the robes of his righteousness as we celebrate God’s redeeming love for our lives. Only then are we empowered by the Spirit to truly “love the LORD and keep his charge” (Deut. 11:1).
The gate is narrow that leads to life, and few there be that find it (Matt. 7:14). That is part of the offense of the cross, after all – the confession you are lost, in darkness, and in need of salvation. Few receive this truth into their hearts because they want to be in control and refuse to let go; few regard their weakness as a blessing that opens the gate to God’s strength. Let the weak say “I am strong” because of what the LORD has done. God’s grace is sufficient, and his strength is perfected in weakness: “So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Messiah may reside in me” (2 Cor. 12:9). “I can do all things through the Messiah who strengthens me” (Phil. 4:13). Amen.
Hebrew Lesson
- Isa. 40:29 Hebrew page (pdf)