“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding” (Prov. 3:5). Note the contrast between trusting and understanding in this familiar verse. Trust is a matter of heart, the decision to let go, whereas understanding is analytical, “objective,” a matter of physical seeing. Human reason may help you discern the “what” of faith, but it is powerless to waken the soul, to breath life into heart, and to impart passion to seek God’s Presence as your greatest need and your utmost good. That only comes through the painful awareness of your own sinful condition, the inner conviction that you are utterly undone and without hope apart from the real presence of God in your life…
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Most commandments do not test how we comprehend our faith as much as they test the surrender of our heart. The test of faith requires bittachon (בִּטָּחוֹן) – that is, abandoning our need to understand so that we can completely cling to God’s wisdom…
“Fear not, for I am with you…” אַל־תִּירָא כִּי עִמְּךָ־אָנִי. What we need most of all is right here, present in this hour, whether we’re conscious of it or not. God is with you, even if you feel alone, lost in darkness, unclean, afraid… “Dear Lord Jesus, I don’t know who I am, I don’t know where I am, and I don’t know what I am, but please love me” (prayer of a sufferer from Alzheimer’s disease). That’s what we need most, to trust that we are safe in God’s love, and that’s the ultimate message of our atonement in Messiah.
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